Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday
-Dale Carnegie
At the early third of night, I don't know why the worries pervades my soul and i walk with everythings that confuse my mind.
I worry,
about my future, especially my hereafter
I worry,
If I follow this desire (same sex attraction)
So I agree with gay lifestyle
And I do liwath (anal sex)
really, I worry,
At the end of my life
I never do taubat
And...I very worry
If in the day of judgment
I have to live in Jahannam forever
naudzubillah........
Ya Rabb, This worries really make a storm in my mind. and I realize that Today is the tomorrow I worried about yesterday. I really worry if i am one of the kafir, who feel sorry and beg to be returned in world as QS. Al Mukminuun 99-100:
[For such is the state of
the disbelievers], until, when death comes to one of them, he
says, "My Lord, send me back. That I might do
righteousness in that which I left behind." No! It is only a
word he is saying; and behind them is a barrier until the
Day they are resurrected.
And This worries help me,
As i worry if I didn't pass the exam, so that i have to study hard and this worries make me to be discipline for my success in the exam and the result, I didn't remedial.
This worries are useful if we worry about the right things. so my mind could be controlled. If I suffer insomnia because of my worry about jahannam, so I always do shalat and keep praying for forgiveness from Allah swt.
Yes...
This worries help me
make me stay in the night
Preparing for the worst
So I prevent danger in world and here after
and next..
I always worry
ahead of 13 Rajab, for Yaumul Bidh Fasting, Insya Allah (gerhanahuda)
اللهم بارك لنا فى رجب و شعبان وبلغنا رمضان
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